im falling to pieces…

hallo.. im seriously getting in some troubles lately. the first one from one of my community, and the second one comes from my family.

i dont think that write down my feelings here gotta get me out of trouble, but please reader.. if you wanna judge me. just close the tab or unfollow.

the very first trouble(case closed now) from my community, they said that i was a rude girl, act like a princess, and dont want to listen of anybody else.
 this kind of bullying of me, was really harsh. i dont know why they could be so mean to me, firstly. on the bright side, i rarely meet them personally. and they judge me and put in the name of ‘family’ for making me down.

and week later, we finally meet and discuss all the problem. they were saying all about my mistakes. and seems what they say about it wasnt enough. me, personally is kind of woman that doesnt like to hear about something bad especially about me. im snob, and thats really i am, take it or leave it. if you have problem about it, thats your problem not mine.

im faking all the smiles and accept what the bad things about me, i really want to tell them that theyre not more that annoying peoples too. but i feel it was too harsh.. so im faking all the smiles and wish time could flies and finish all the interrogation soon as possible.

in the end of discussion, they wish all the problem could solve. and act like nothing has been done between us. but like the mirror was breaking into pieces however we mend it, it will never brand new and original,just like my feeling to them, it will never be same.

the second trouble i got into is my financial. im really scare of my financial, my family financial. well… i could get crazy think about this.
well, this is too personal to declare here, i guess..

the third, my notebook.. i wish i could gotten my notebook fixed soon!

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Bermalam di Sekret SUMA. 2 Maret 2013.

tadi malam gue nginep di sekret. such a lovely memories…

awalnya gue sebenernya rada bete juga sama kosan gue yang membatasi jam malam sampe jam 10 malem. menurut gue, jam 10? oh come on.. itu sore banget. tapi… ternyata kadang ada untungnya. walau banyak bikin bete nya.

nah, gue di sekret baru dapet berita yang mau di layoutin ke buletin sekitar jam 9 an. dan gue baru mulai kerja sih setengahjam setelah itu. gue cuman ngerjain satu berita which is… bisa dikerjain juga loh di rumah/kosan!

gue rada-rada gak ngerti gitu tentang inDesign, Kak Akbar dengan baiknya dan lucunya ngejelasin. gue sebenernye pada awalnya rada negative thinking sama dia, karena tampangnya itu selengekan banget! tapi ternyata oh ternyata, dia baik banget, tipikal cowok baik-baik deh, yang nggak ngerokok, sholatnya (lumayan) rajin, dan lain sebagainya. oh my goat.. gue bener-bener gak nyangka. gue kira dia agak gak care gitu.. ternyataaaa.. yup. dont judge the book by its cover.

terus semaleman gue malah download film, youtube an tanpa buffering, live streaming java jazz.. dan.. omg omg internet di sekret itu.. seriously keren banget. ngebuuutttttt!! bukan karena suma beli hotspot sendiri tapi pake internet UI di buat router lagi gitu. dan ya jatohnya gue ngernet pake inet UI di sumbernya. download 2MB/Sec gila! dan untuk link luar negeri nya itu sekitar 300kb/s gitu.. ya lumayan bangeeett!

 semalem yang nginep adalah Gue, Dian, Kak Akbar, Kak Riza, Kak Sam, Kak Arif. Kak Arif ini dulunya anak saimala juga lohh!! gue kaget bangeettt… oh ya, tentang Kak Arif, DOI BAEK BANGET!! sumpaaaaahhh ~ aaaaa gak ngerti lagi sama Kak Arif!! <3 

tapi kak arif sekitar jam 3 an gitu setelah semua bobo, dia balik ke kosan. gue denger sih skitar jam 2 dia ngomong mau balik, dan gue yang sayup sayup ngantuk dan berbaring dideket dia, mau bilang: kak, kenapa mau pulang? jangan pulang please… dan kayaknya itu terjadi di dalam otak gue aja. ahahaha 

Dan yak, tentang Kak riza, doi tuh expert of the expert Designer di Suara Mahasiswa.  gue mikir awalnya dia agak galak. tapi ternyataaaa aaahhhh… he is so childish! dan.. dia suka kucing! aaaaa Kak rizaaa!!! gak nyangkaaaa >.< 

gue sama dian adalah angkatan baru di Suma jadi belom seberapa pengalaman dengan nginep-nginep di sekret gitu. dan jujur gue agak takut sih, mana kan cowok semua. tapi yaa… percaya aja sama kayak naek angkot. kita percayain kemudi di pegang supir walau kita sendiri bisa nyetir.    

dan semakin kesini, gue semakin merasa beruntung berada di perkuliahan ini. gue punya temen-temen yang baik dari Suara Mahasiswa, Saimala, dan dari TSI! gue seneng.. i mean, gak kayak semester 1 kemaren yang gue merasa gak bisa percaya sedikitpun sama orang lain. kali ini gue lebih ngejalanin hidup dengan lebih santai dan lebih bahagia, mungkin Allah udah kasian sama gue yang merasa sendiri, dan sendirian. Teman adalah hadiah terindah di awal tahun 2013 ini dari Allah buat gue. makasih ya Allah.